Hello 2021. After 2020 being such a challenging year for humanity I hope and pray 2021 is a year of growing the seeds we planted through the hard seasons of 2020. I am sending everyone prayers and positive energy and I hope you and your loved ones are safe at this time and always. Let’s continue to help humanity by staying home, washing our hands and by practicing social distancing.  

For me the beginning of 2020 feels like a totally different lifetime. 2020 started so beautifully. 2019 ended in South Africa with my aunties and uncles while I waited to be reunited with my family after being apart for months while I was living in Vietnam. The month of January 2020 was filled with what can only be described as pure bliss. Witnessing my womb-mate, my identical twin sister and my brother-in-law get married in what was the most beautiful and joyous wedding celebrations I had ever seen. Their wedding took place in our mother land; South Africa and brought family who had migrated to Australia over 20 years ago back home for the first time since their departure. Friends from Australia got to experience the beauty of our culture and our family from all over South Africa came together in Cape Town for the celebrations. Love was the theme of the month. Pure, unconditional, ever present, everlasting love. The love of my twin and her now husband, the love of culture and the love of family and friends filled my heart and soul to the brim. 

The weeks leading to the wedding and witnessing and getting to be a part of the growth of this union took me on a reflective journey through my experiences of love. The love I was witnessing, the types of love I had come to know, the love I wanted and the love I gave to men who didn’t deserve it. I have always been someone who was fascinated with love. Like many girls I loved the idea of a handsome prince and my fairytale. I wanted to understand what true love was and always hoped to be loved unconditionally. I found the idea of love interesting. I was fascinated with how people fall in love, the idea that your soulmate existed and that he would fine me. I always felt like I had so much love to give but I never ever experienced what it was like to receive it even close to what I gave. I don’t think I have ever experienced what it is truly like to be loved. I witnessed some beautiful examples of love but only ever experienced some of the most painful depictions of what I thought love was.  

With all that in mind I wanted to start 2021 relaunching my series called “The Lessons Love Taught Me”, because many of the lessons in my life so far have come from my experiences of Love. Giving love, receiving love, loosing love, learning what love is, what it isn’t and having my heart broken more times than I can count. In this written series I will share lessons about my experiences of Love. Lessons I have learned from the love of friends, mentors, my parents, the men I have loved, the men that broke my heart and mostly love I have discovered for myself. I decided to start this series to share that it’s ok to talk about things people often don’t when it comes to love. That it’s beautiful when it right, it hurts like hell when it’s not and that people are always in our life for a reason, a season or a lifetime and that despite how bad heat break feels, we will always survive it.  

I started my old live journal in a hope to inspire people everywhere to embrace your own stories and vulnerability and bring normalcy to having real conversations about REAL life. I hope that by sharing MY life and the lessons life have taught me in some way it can support you through anything you may be experiencing.  

2021 is the year I embrace vulnerability more than I ever have to show you that yes, being vulnerable is uncomfortable but it’s also the greatest measure of courage and it will only ever empower us to speak our truth and stand brave and strong and support our journey through healing. 

I wanted to share my Love Lessons in particular because I have had some hard love lessons and owning my truth and my vulnerability is sharing these lessons too and standing tall knowing my story is my own. Through my love lessons I want to share what the wrong relationships have taught me and that not all love is good love and most of all I want you to focus on the most important love you will ever have…… the love for yourself. Because no one will ever love you like you do. 

So, stay tuned for “The Lessons Love Taught Me”. 

Peace & Love Y’all 

Bee xx